Sunday, March 27, 2011

Back to the Third Grade!

   I don't have to go back to my college days to discover how young and foolish I was.  Sometimes I reread these very blogs that I am writing now and realize that I never really explained what I meant to say!  Life can be complicated within a single sentence.  Language may not be the best form of communication.
     There is a huge satisfaction now in looking over a sunset and realizing all of the things that I have done, the things that I have built, sunsets on other continents that I have seen and people who touched me along the way.  I didn't get here by myself.  Despite my faults and I am sure I have many, I am with the same woman for over forty years and couldn't imagine it any other way!  She is the strong one of the family, my anchor.
As I look across the horizon, behind me I am blessed with two beautiful, hard working, sensitive and intelligent daughters and realize that I am a pretty lucky man.
     At some point in their lives they will have the same thoughts that I have.  How did they get to where they are and, simply, where are they going?  I know that some people never think these thoughts, never wonder beyond the next cup of tea, have an ability to be "in the now", don't know where they have been or where they are going.  I know people like that.  Sometimes I think God made marijuana just for them! or Valium.
Or maybe even television?
     I would be the first person to tell you that I do not know all the answers!  I think I am a Democrat but I
admit there are days when I think I may be a Republican!  I really truly hate Fox News and think everything there belongs on "Laugh In", that comedy program of the '60's when we still had that ability to laugh at each other.  So, all of this gets me to thinking.  How did I become a Democrat?  What is there about me that I have been married for over 40 years?  Why am I so lucky with my children?  What is there about tomatoes
that makes my garden so important to me?  What do I want to be doing next year or next week? What will I be when I grow up?
     Along the way I meet people with similar spirits and maybe in discovering how they did something I can discover how I did something.  It is an investigative sort of life, turning rocks over.  I learned a long time ago that if you have an anticipated outcome you will always be disappointed.  It is better to keep your eyes wide open and be happily surprised.
    I am a nudger I admit that.  I think it is okay to be uncomfortable.  Part of that is the school teacher that is still within me and my construction background.  My job was always to get something done.
   I really don't do this 24 hours a day.  It is not a phobia and I have a life beyond questioning.  Like you, a lot is dealing with the petty and  pedantic things of life, routine, maybe necessary things that give us balance.
   So, this all brings me back to the third grade when I first learned that I could write three sentences in a row!  Somewhere way back in this blog I told you about Miss Westen, my third grade teacher and that horrible assignment: "What did you do over Summer Vacation?".  This week, I promise, I will tell you the rest of that story!
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6 comments:

PAMO said...
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Barbra Joan said...

Oh Jerry, you tell these tales oh so well, and I know that most of it is very true.
You have a lot to say, and always there are people who have a lot to learn.. and some of those times I was that person!
When we reach this part of the journey we have pretty much become the sum of all our past, the good, the bad the experiences. Now, we add up to what we are today.
And yes even now still learning . !! Amazing!

Barbra Joan said...
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Barbra Joan said...

Jerry , come on now.. is that it? I can't believe that is your big debate.. see now you know whyI never ever comment on politics and religion.

AutumnLeaves said...

My husband is one of those people who "live in the now" as you said. I often times I wish I could just be like that. No worries. No concerns. Blythe. Fugue state. La la land. Yessirre, sometimes I wish I was there myself.

AutumnLeaves said...

And BJ, you've once again proved that we are of a heart.